Never Again Will You Steal My Joy

By |March 16th, 2013|

You try to take my glow away

Ha, I’m on to you!

 

You think I’m unaware,

that I don’t see what you do

 

Doing all you can,

to make my light go out

Don’t think I don’t know what you are all about

 

Trying to knock me down

and keep me down there

 

But I have news for you

I’m staying right here

 

Up, up, up […]

I Cry out to You Lord

By |February 23rd, 2012|

I cry out to you Lord

Because I don’t know what else to do

I am lost and alone; I’m looking up to you

I try to make things better on my own

Time after time

But I fail, trapped in my own mental grime

 

I scream out to you Lord

Until my throat is sore

Yet, I feel no victory, no winning […]

Images

By |February 23rd, 2012|

The past is the past

That’s what the Word says

But I am still haunted by my yesterdays

Images of experiences past,

I still see them in my mind

 

They keep coming back to haunt me

Time after time

It’s like I can’t let go

The guilt follows me everywhere

I try to move forward

But yesterday’s images stir up my fear

 

It’s like the present […]

Satan, I’m Not Your Victim

By |February 23rd, 2012|

Satan, I’m not your victim

I’m not a statistic

I’m not going out like that

You are a liar, a freaking liar

But I’m taking my life back

 

You have had your hold on my mental state

from way back in my youth

But I am not letting you keep it anymore

And taking back my truth

 

You stole from me, what was rightfully […]

The Black Abyss

By |February 22nd, 2012|

To tell the plain and simple truth

Most times I feel like I’m in the dark hole

I can’t get out of

Happiness, love and joy are all around me

But I can’t touch it, no matter how hard I try

 

It’s like I’m from another dimension looking in

Everyone is smiling and laughing around me

But my laughter and smiles, I […]

Anxiety Knocks

By |January 3rd, 2012|

There was a time you use to be a regular part of me

Wherever I’d go, it’s you I’d see

I never felt safe with you around

You turned my whole world upside down

 

I’d pray everyday and ask God to send

You away from me, you’re not my friend

Still there you were, always taunting me

I still held on to […]

Overcoming Anxiety

By |January 3rd, 2012|

Empty your mind of negative things

Take a deep breath

Breathe out, breathe in

 

Get your body in tip-top shape

Eat well, sleep well, exercise

Don’t you wait, don’t compromise

 

Remember your fear is only in your head

It’s not as scary as what you dread

Don’t believe the frightening imaginings of your mind

Also remember take it a step at a time

 

Don’t be […]

Panic Attacks

By |January 3rd, 2012|

My heart is racing

My chest is tight

I’m feeling spacey

I’m not alright

 

My feet are wobbly

I can not stand

I can’t think straight

Got shaky hands

 

Can’t do the things I normally could do

Can’t cross the street

Can’t tie my shoe

 

My voice is slurred

My vision is blurred

I am consumed by worry

For my safety

 

Wish I was alone

In my safety zone

Where no one […]

Worry

By |January 3rd, 2012|

Worry can’t change things

Fix things or make things better

It doesn’t add to your life in anyway

Unless it’s to give you an ulcer

 

So why worry?

Don’t ask me

What do I do it?

Worry does absolutely nothing for me

 

Why do I worry and make such a fuss?

When I know God’s got a plan for us

 

Worry doesn’t add at all […]

Guilty

By |January 3rd, 2012|

I feel so guilty

Like a total and absolute failure

I am so upset at my behavior

Why do I have to be so human?

Why do I have to be so flawed?

So indiscipline, I’m appalled

I want to better

Make better choices

I wish I didn’t give into temptation

I wish I was better at making sacrifices

So badly I want to be […]